tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4694539537971446518.post2772088447348383873..comments2024-02-18T19:40:59.772-05:00Comments on One DNP: Life in the Midst of MidtermsOneDNPhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13154826509898126475noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4694539537971446518.post-21351330043886931262010-12-15T19:43:50.168-05:002010-12-15T19:43:50.168-05:00wow, jaclyn. i totally understand.
i'm so so...wow, jaclyn. i totally understand. <br /><br />i'm so sorry to hear about all of this and hope that you are healing ... in every sense of the word.<br /><br />just understand that everything you are feeling (and not feeling) is completely normal. i didn't think i would ever be happy to see a positive pregnancy test again ... and i wasn't. when i took the first test with harper, i burst into hysterical and terrified tears. and for the rest of that crazy, scary, completely abnormal pregnancy, the fear only subsided a little bit. i just felt betrayed by my body. i didn't feel like i could trust it to do its job, even as, like you said, women that have no business having a baby do it all the time. and i felt guilty about it. it's all just ... hard. pregnancy is hard. babies are a miracle. the people that think otherwise or have conceptions or pregnancies that indicate otherwise are LUCKY, not normal.<br /><br />let me know if you need anything. when i miscarried, and when i was quite sure that we were losing harper, talking to women that had been through it was, strangely, a great comfort. i don't know why it made things better, but it did.<br /><br />lots of love and healing thoughts from all of us!Erinnoreply@blogger.com